Friday, May 21, 2010

Thank You

Do you like my super melodramatic moment? I'm sorry I posted the most vague and silly post and then disabled comments but right then and there it felt like the world was starting to crumble in on me. Blogs are meant to be honest, raw and real...or at least that is how I want mine to be.

Thank you to the comments, emails, text and inquiries...turns out I was okay...

short story...I got in trouble with the law...had to fess up to the parents and low and behold they laughed and told me it was all a part of growing up.

I should give 'em more credit.

I also realized that I can make myself sick with anxiety and worry which is not good. You know what is good? Having someone who cares about you so much that they know just when to swoop in and say the right things and hug just the right way.

Thank you Ross for being more than I could have ever wished for making me the luckiest girl.

I'm okay...and as I calm myself down and look at the love I have I'm gonna be just fine =)

Wednesday, May 19, 2010


"Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
Where there are clouds in the sky
you'll get by"

please oh please tell me I'll be okay.
because right now I'm not.
I'm just wondering how I could be so stupid.
I'm so sorry..

Friday, May 14, 2010

Chit Chat

Is it alright if we can just cuddle up and chat for a bit? It is seriously my favorite thing to do. Grabbing coffee with a good friend or bugging my mom while she is watching her telenovelas and snuggling with Ross, him making me laugh, make my days so bright and happy.
There has been so much going on lately that I haven't had to blog or do other activities that are on my dod to list. But don't ever feel like you're just running to catch up all the time? My room is a mess and my mind is just as cluttered and I just want to chit chat with you all about something things on my mind.

On School- My focus was so off this semester and it showed in how ehh my grades were. I'm just so apathetic to it all and it feels wrong since my one dream in life has been to go to college but boy oh boy is it all getting old fast. I went to my best friend's graduation ceremony last night (Congrats Sara on your Bachelors of Science in Design Studies, Design Management!!) and it helped to put everything into perspective. I'm feeling that want to learn more and study and do the whole college thing and that makes me quite excited for next semester and for getting my shizz together to graduate in the next year!

On Moving- Yep I tweeted about it the other day but I am moving from my parents house out to another place a little closer to town and Tempe and ASU. My parents made an investment on a little mobile home (which looks more home than mobile so that works) and I'm moving in with my brother and maybe sister to take care of the bills and fix up the place. I am excited to get to paint and decorator but I already started with the closet (it had wood paneling! I though I was gonna die!) and after 4 coats of paint and still not anywhere close to being done I'm already feeling that I've bitten off more than I can chew. I haven't even started packing or cleaning so that adds more stress but I am excited to finally be moving my bed and desks and for the first time officially moving out of my parents house 100% (this means ALL my stuff and furniture) I'm excited for that change and taking another step to really growing up.

On Working Out- Since classes ended so has my regular workout schedule =( I;m not eating that well and trying to fit in workouts when I can but I can already feel the effects of not working out all the time! I'm tired and sluggish but I am really hoping when I get moved in and ready to go I can dive head first into working out and cooking and planning out meals and all in all a healthier lifestyle.

On Ross- Wow. I fell like the luckiest girl in the world. Luckiest girl in the world or lottery winner...both? yeah I feel like both having an awesome hair day and feelings skinny...that's how good I feel. I would get all mushy gushy but Ross has seen the blog! I know and if that's not bad enough we're following each other on twitter now so my plan B of escaping to tweet abou all the mushy gushy I can't contain is a no-go.

On Cats- Hello Ross' kitties! However much I was totally not a cat person before I can't help but love your furry little butts! The way you two meow or the cute little faces you make just makes my cute-o-meter go off the charts! Even if you two started picking me flowers, no amount of cuteness would make up for you two pooping in a box and then walking around all up in it. EWE.

What do you wanna chit-chat about?

Monday, May 10, 2010

Killed It!

Me and Ross were going to go out Saturday Night (he has been planning this secret project, but alas the stars were not aligned so we nixed the idea) but we stayed in and had an epic night in instead.

We both love Betty White (honestly who doesn't) and she seriously killed it on SNL.
We started the night with some take-out sushi
a couple of bottles of wine
watched Dr. Strangelove (that movie is hilarious! We were cracking up so hard)
and then seeing this lovely lady along with a gripload of former SNL cast members on SNL's Mother's Day show.

Sadly though I don't quite remember the whole episode. I think we may have had too much wine and we both might have had a night like this...

at least I wasn't the only one this time.

Here is to my last day of finals and getting everything finished up today! Here is also to tylenol and bottles of water and sliced guys saved my bum yesterday!
Happy Monday!

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

I'm not a size 2

I have never been this size. I would have to stop eating completely to get even close to a size 2 and in the end I think I could only make it to a 4.

No matter how much I wish I looked like this when I looked in the mirror- I will never have that body. Looking into a picture of Megan is the closet I'll get to looking like that.
What i've realized is that it's not the end of the world...
I'f I'm not a size 2.

These girls realized that it's okay to not be like Megan.
They aren't a size 2 but they look every bit as fierce as Megan.
This beauty looks better in a retro style than Megan in a bikini to me.
Christina Hendricks was Esquire's sexiest woman and look! She's not a size 2.
Actually you can surly see her curves are killer.
None of these girls are a size 2 and I can't help but find everyone one of them more beautiful than Miss Megan too. They have confidence and radiant beauty. They aren't starving themselves to be thin and beating themselves up when they eat badly and neither should I.
I work out 3 times a week and eat regularly pretty healthy foods and if I'm never a size 2- so be it. I am proud of how strong I am getting and how good I feel when I eat lots of veggies and greens. Felling good and strong is more important than hitting a certain number and I just have to remind myself that it's just not the way my body was built. I am curvy. Hell Ross loves my curvy body and this is my declaration that I love it too!

Curvy to me is real beauty and it helps just having a reminder of all the other beautiful women who will never be a size 2.
Like this classic beauty. She was never a size 2...
and pretty sure that didn't stop her from being the blond bombshell

Eat healthy loves. Workout and feel great and don't beat yourself up over that slice of chocolate cake or curvaceous hips.